Monday, December 21, 2009

once more....

once more...just once more someone tells me "teaching is the best job for a woman", i'll kill them.

it's so frigging annoying to hear this. its just plain ridiculous. ufffff!! why r ppl so weird?!! i'm so tired of having to hear this everytime i tell sum1 wat i do. "oh ur a teacher...wonderful...thats the best job for a girl.".....like women cant do anything else...like they were only born to cook n clean n reproduce....n they should only hav a job that lets them come back at 1 pm so that they can do all that.

GAWD!!!!

i didnt take up teaching bcoz i thot it was well suited for me, the woman....it was just well suited for ME, irrespective of my gender. am pretty sure i would have been a teacher even if i were a boy. n wat the heck...the best teachers i hav had over the years have all been men....starting from mr ross in class 5 to berty dasilva in college.

ppl, specially the i-have-left-my-brains-in-the-16th-century middle aged indian men (and some women too!), need to grow up. BIG TIME!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Hoola - Hooped

ever tried hoola hooping? if u havent, u MUST! its just the most fun thing! i was actually inspired by a bunch of 8 year old girls. it always amazes me as to how those little girls twirl the hoops around themselves with so much ease. i, for some reason, never tried doing it. i always had an idea that i wont b able to do it.

that was till today.

all it took for me to get hooked on to the hoop was a little bit of begging from 3 little girls who insisted i play with them too. their toy was...well...the mighty hoop n i only complied. secretly i had been hoping all these days that they would ask me to join them, so wen it happened today i was overjoyed!

it didnt go too well initially. i had a tough time trying to keep it off the floor...but once i got the hang of it, there really was no stopping me. n the poor kids were kinda hoping they didnt invite me to the game! "Ma'am can i please have a turn now", "ma'aam the bell's going to ring...i want to show u a new trick"...they tried it all, but i refused to give the hoop back :D

may sound mean now, but if u were there, u wud have known y i turned a deaf ear to them. hehe! n then when i had to give it up, i went over to the other group n skipped. it was a lot of fun too, but then that's sumthin i've done before...so wat the heck!!

i sometimes envy myself for having the best job in the world. who else gets to (literally) play in the middle of the day....n not just play FARMVILLE! :P

Saturday, July 25, 2009

questions

when it was there i didnt value it
when i lost it i wanted it
but i wonder if i really need it
but i am scared i wont b able to do without it
why do i hav to feel so bad
why does the pain make me so mad

Thursday, July 16, 2009

wht oh why

if there is one thing that really makes me mad, its the bandh culture of west bengal. it is so horrible that i cant even begin to explain how i feel everytime i hear there's a bandh. it's like we dont even live in a democracy n some ppl can do whatever they want, whenever they want.

was just watching the news on TV n saw a group of hooligans torching a state bus near sealdah. n then after a few days these very ppl who apparently belong to the "middle class" n cant afford vehicles of their own n so curse n taunt the so called "privilaged few" for owning cars, will complain that the govt does nothing for them, not even prvide enough buses. n wen i see them torching buses like this n destroying property wich their 10 generations put together also cant imagine to own, it makes me so angry. they really deserve to travel under bad conditions...let them have to go to work everyday in the crowded bus, getting shoved n molested. afterall they torched that extra bus that cud hav shared the passenger load. bloody morons!

wen i was younger, i use to like bandhs...simply coz it meant an extra holiday...most ppl still hav the same outlook regarding bandhs. but i really wish ppl took a look at the broader picture. wat good wud a bandh ever do? the unreasonable demands r almost never met wit, or the so called action is never taken agaisnt anyone. so ultimately a bandh becomes nothing but a blatent show of power...how it is openly misused. the political terrorists walk rite into our lives n ruin it, quite literally so. think abt a daily wage earner...where does a bandh leave him? wat abt a rickshaw wala n the others who get to eat if they get work on that day? n lets not even talk abt the industries running away from "waste bengal"!

i really wish this place wakes up to reality. i am one of the few ppl i know who loves this city so much, n now even i wanna move out. i hate this, but i wish things improve. who r we bluffing? we've got nothing, n by the look of things, nothing but disorder will b achieved.

sigh.......................................................................

Friday, June 5, 2009

At the Fish Market

I like shopping. Be it for clothes at a fancy mall or for fish at the local market. I really enjoy shopping. I went to the fish market this morning and had the funniest conversation ever wit a fish seller. The deal is that I have been going to this market for a long time n the ppl generally know me. I went to buy fish from a fellow who had last time enquired abt where i work n stuff. N since i dont particularly like carrying ahead useless conversations, I must have told him that i work at an office to get rid of his questions! so this time he started enquiring further:

Fish seller - aaj ophish nei? (dont hav office today?)

me - [realising it'll take him a while to cut the fish n there's no way i can escape] na, ami school e chakri kori, r ekhon chhuti cholche (i work in a school n vacations r on)

FS - acha....kon school? (ok which school?)

me - Cambridge [its an international school, affiliated to the university of Cambridge]

FS - gives a look which kinda says...huh? wat...where....why?!!

FS - acha...HS na delhi board?

me - [to desparately avoid further conversation!] HS (west bengal board)

FS - [refusing to shut up!!!] oh...puro baro class obdi ache? (its there till class 12?)

me - [another attempt to cut it short] na, 10 obdi (no, only till class 1o)

FS - govt. ra toh aaj kal teacher diche na, tai tomader moto chhoto school gulo boro hote parche na (the govt is not recruiting good teachers n so small schools like urs r not being able to expand)

me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FS - chinta koro na....thik hoe jabe (dont worry, it wl soon expand)

me - tumi maach ta bari te pouche diyo, amake ekhon jete hobe (pls deliver the fish to my house, i really have to go now)!

LOL!!! i think i was more amused than disguisted by the end of it!!! i laughed all the way back home! was really funny....the colourful bengalis n their even more colourful remarks n advices wl always remain!

not that i mind...it was a lot of fun, really. but i still hid in the bathroom when he came to deliver the fish later at home. I just cudnt handle another round of Q&A!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

for want of a daab

the weather's killing me. literally. i hate it...just simply hate it!! the only thing i like is the fact that mangoes are available. ahh...mangoes - the only reason summer can b tolerated. n mayb daab...though daab is available the whole year, nothings really as pleasurable as sipping a cool daab on a hot, sunny day.

but thats only if daabs r available.

they bloody dont seem to b found anywhere. ki chaap! ur all hot n sweaty n dehydrated n u go looking for a mere daab n u cant find one! n that too in one of the city's biggest markets...how weird is that?!?!

was roaming around new market the other day wit a friend (who strangely doesnt like daab or mangoes :-O ) n desparately wanted a daab. bloody travelled half the city n still cudnt find one! ufffff...was really pissed...pissed enough to write this rather meaningless post abt a daab, n that too two days later!!!

actually i have nothing better to do....school vacations r on n i am basically jobless. one good thing tho is that i'm getting to meet a lot of friends. n since i'm a natural faakibaaj, a paid leave doesnt really bother me too much!! :D


ps - for all those reading this who dont understand bangla (i doubt there wud b anyone....no one reads my blog anyway!!), daab is nothing but tender coconut!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

me scott?

I have a new name! its scott! nice name, isnt it? well, I'm not sure how I got that name, but now that i hav it, i'm quite happy.
ok ok...i'll explain. i keep getting these spam mails n in almost all of them i'm refered to as Scot. ok, here's the deal...i'm very tech challenged n i hav no clue how spammers operate. for all u know, mayb its just one guy whoz sending these mails to everyone from different mail ids n calling all his recipients Scott. but who knows n who cares...i'm jus happy to hav a new name :D

n for all those who r wondering as to what bizness i hav reading spam mails, u'll b happy (read jealous) to know that i hav a lot of free time on my hands. i am often bored to death n thats when i do such useless things!
n while on the topic of boredom, let me tell u why i am bored...i generally hav a lot of (freelance) work. but since i find writing meaningless articles totally disguisting, i hav decided to give up freelancing. oh does all this bore u? is this information of no use to u? well, i dont really care, since its my blog n I get to choose what goes in here! tee hee hee :D

well, here's to my boredom, lack in life, n definitely to SCOTT!!!!

Friday, March 20, 2009

25 Random Things About Me

There's this note on facebook thats got everyone engaged. a few of my friends tagged me, so i thot i'd post it too. but facebook is too impersonal n i have a few ppl on my list who i dont wanna share stuff wit. plus there r some kids from my school who r added too. wud b weird if they read this!

ok here it goes:

  1. i am extremely disorganised. the word "organised" doesnt exist in my dictionary!
  2. i had a horrible accident wen i was 3 months old n almost died
  3. i'm not particularly scared of anything, except crossing roads.
  4. i REALLY want to meet a ghost. i want to see a ghost atleast once!!!
  5. i love my city n the thot of living outside kolkata makes me sad
  6. i lost my mom wen i was 16
  7. i want to go backpacking across europe all by myself.
  8. i like being alone. i love hanging out wit friends n socialising, but after a while, i cannot stand it if i dont get some time alone. the thought of being surrounded by ppl at all times petrifies me!
  9. as vain as that may sound, i quite enjoy the tag of the "cool teacher" that i have acquired!! :P
  10. n speaking of vanity, i am extremely, severely, completely vain! i love dressing up, taking care of myself n fishing for compliments!!! :D
  11. i am completely dependent on my friends n my life wud fall apart if i did not hav friends
  12. as a kid, i considered myself to be a boy. i hated the fact that i was a girl.
  13. i consider my love life to be jinxed
  14. i am very caring and cannot see a loved one in pain
  15. i dislike fights at all levels
  16. i am a little crazy and very happy abt it. wats life without some random madness?!
  17. i LOVVVVE cooking :)
  18. as a teenager, i thot i was the ugliest person alive, but now i feel its quite the opposite!! :D
  19. i'd rather die than become fat!!!!!
  20. i hate egoistic ppl...i hate the kind who take iffence at the drop of a hat.
  21. i wish i took dance lessons...i love dancing, but cant dance to save my life!
  22. i love getting wet in the rain
  23. i cry a lot, but never in front of other ppl. i cry for stupid things...not necesarilly bcoz i'm sad...i dont get sad too often
  24. i am very judgemental and prejudiced!
  25. i cant believe i could finish this list! wow!! am so proud of myself now!!!!

on second thoughts, i think i will add it to my facebook profile :P

Friday, March 13, 2009

recollections

went to JU yesterday after a long time...was a weird feeling indeed. the place made me happy, nostalgic n sad. though i just spent a year at the university, it somehow always feels that i spent my college days there. i had the misfortune of going to the shittiest college on earth n hated every bit of it...those 3 years were nightmarish!! n so, quite obviously, JU after that was like HEAVEN!

walking down the roads of the university made me remember the days when i got to really live my life. those days were awesome, in many ways actually. i had just started dating someone (n that probably was the last time i was so thrilled abt romance!) n so was super happy all the time. i had made some lovely friends n also got introduced to a culture (that many hate) that i absolutely loved. overall, my days at JU were filled with a lot of fun n happiness. i loved the course too n so it was really great.

yesterday i felt a little sad while walking down, but wat followed cheered me up. and once i again i realised how immensely dependent i am on my friends. i really am a person who cant survive without friends. i do not need friends to confide my sorrows n secrets in, but i jus need them to b around me all the time. i just feel so alive! bondhura na thakle i'll positively die!! once i met my friends yesterday, i instantly stopped feeling weird, n it was like being back in JU literally - i started having fun all over again!

met a very cool girl yesterday. got a birthday treat. laughed. the day was fun indeed! mayb a little bit of blue is good--it opens the door for more memories that can make u feel blue later on!!!! :P

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

YAHOOOOO!

i've always been a great yahoo messenger fan. its so cool! sad that ppl dont use ym anymore :(
google talk seems to have completely killed good ol ym. i hate gtalk for that (i love gtalk too...cant live without it!). but yahoo seems to have done something similar n the messenger can b accessed from the mailbox itself, just like in google. lets hope this brings ppl back to ym.

n i hope my friends get back on it too. ppl...pls get back on ym...its jus so much more cooler n better than gtalk...the emoticons n stuff! am so bored of the silly wannabe blue, cruked "emoticons" that u r forced to use on gtalk!! uffff!

yahoo!....its back!!

ps- this is a really bad post. i am too sleepy n not sure wat i hav written! pls excuse the language if its wrong or nonsensical! i am just trying to promote ym, thats all! :D

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

....at school

Since i teach class 3 kids, i get to read a lot of kiddy poems n stories. its usually those silly (shudnt call them silly...they r written by the most famous child poets!), sweet, rhyming poems. its good fun to read them n the kids enjoy them too. but today i came across such a beautiful poem. it was a kiddy poem, but i felt it was very deep. its a pity i had to teach it to the kids, who really do not know how to appreciate poetry. they only read poetry on the surface n never get into analysing them. i wish i taught older students, say class 10 or 11. it wud b so amazing to have them analyse the poem...

poetry has always been my weakness and i loved it all through in school in college. after school n college i never thought i would get to appreciate it as much. suddenly i feel discontented wit my job...i cannot remain teaching 8 yr olds. though its a great n an amazing experience every single day, i want a teaching job thats more challenging.

let me see what i can do about it......