questions

when it was there i didnt value it

when i lost it i wanted it

but i wonder if i really need it

but i am scared i wont b able to do without it

why do i hav to feel so bad

why does the pain make me so mad

wht oh why

if there is one thing that really makes me mad, its the bandh culture of west bengal. it is so horrible that i cant even begin to explain how i feel everytime i hear there's a bandh. it's like we dont even live in a democracy n some ppl can do whatever they want, whenever they want.

was just watching the news on TV n saw a group of hooligans torching a state bus near sealdah. n then after a few days these very ppl who apparently belong to the "middle class" n cant afford vehicles of their own n so curse n taunt the so called "privilaged few" for owning cars, will complain that the govt does nothing for them, not even prvide enough buses. n wen i see them torching buses like this n destroying property wich their 10 generations put together also cant imagine to own, it makes me so angry. they really deserve to travel under bad conditions...let them have to go to work everyday in the crowded bus, getting shoved n molested. afterall they torched that extra bus that cud hav shared the passenger load. bloody morons!

wen i was younger, i use to like bandhs...simply coz it meant an extra holiday...most ppl still hav the same outlook regarding bandhs. but i really wish ppl took a look at the broader picture. wat good wud a bandh ever do? the unreasonable demands r almost never met wit, or the so called action is never taken agaisnt anyone. so ultimately a bandh becomes nothing but a blatent show of power...how it is openly misused. the political terrorists walk rite into our lives n ruin it, quite literally so. think abt a daily wage earner...where does a bandh leave him? wat abt a rickshaw wala n the others who get to eat if they get work on that day? n lets not even talk abt the industries running away from "waste bengal"!

i really wish this place wakes up to reality. i am one of the few ppl i know who loves this city so much, n now even i wanna move out. i hate this, but i wish things improve. who r we bluffing? we've got nothing, n by the look of things, nothing but disorder will b achieved.

sigh.......................................................................

At the Fish Market

I like shopping. Be it for clothes at a fancy mall or for fish at the local market. I really enjoy shopping. I went to the fish market this morning and had the funniest conversation ever wit a fish seller. The deal is that I have been going to this market for a long time n the ppl generally know me. I went to buy fish from a fellow who had last time enquired abt where i work n stuff. N since i dont particularly like carrying ahead useless conversations, I must have told him that i work at an office to get rid of his questions! so this time he started enquiring further:

Fish seller - aaj ophish nei? (dont hav office today?)

me - [realising it'll take him a while to cut the fish n there's no way i can escape] na, ami school e chakri kori, r ekhon chhuti cholche (i work in a school n vacations r on)

FS - acha....kon school? (ok which school?)

me - Cambridge [its an international school, affiliated to the university of Cambridge]

FS - gives a look which kinda says...huh? wat...where....why?!!

FS - acha...HS na delhi board?

me - [to desparately avoid further conversation!] HS (west bengal board)

FS - [refusing to shut up!!!] oh...puro baro class obdi ache? (its there till class 12?)

me - [another attempt to cut it short] na, 10 obdi (no, only till class 1o)

FS - govt. ra toh aaj kal teacher diche na, tai tomader moto chhoto school gulo boro hote parche na (the govt is not recruiting good teachers n so small schools like urs r not being able to expand)

me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FS - chinta koro na....thik hoe jabe (dont worry, it wl soon expand)

me - tumi maach ta bari te pouche diyo, amake ekhon jete hobe (pls deliver the fish to my house, i really have to go now)!

LOL!!! i think i was more amused than disguisted by the end of it!!! i laughed all the way back home! was really funny....the colourful bengalis n their even more colourful remarks n advices wl always remain!

not that i mind...it was a lot of fun, really. but i still hid in the bathroom when he came to deliver the fish later at home. I just cudnt handle another round of Q&A!

for want of a daab

the weather's killing me. literally. i hate it...just simply hate it!! the only thing i like is the fact that mangoes are available. ahh...mangoes - the only reason summer can b tolerated. n mayb daab...though daab is available the whole year, nothings really as pleasurable as sipping a cool daab on a hot, sunny day.

but thats only if daabs r available.

they bloody dont seem to b found anywhere. ki chaap! ur all hot n sweaty n dehydrated n u go looking for a mere daab n u cant find one! n that too in one of the city's biggest markets...how weird is that?!?!

was roaming around new market the other day wit a friend (who strangely doesnt like daab or mangoes :-O ) n desparately wanted a daab. bloody travelled half the city n still cudnt find one! ufffff...was really pissed...pissed enough to write this rather meaningless post abt a daab, n that too two days later!!!

actually i have nothing better to do....school vacations r on n i am basically jobless. one good thing tho is that i'm getting to meet a lot of friends. n since i'm a natural faakibaaj, a paid leave doesnt really bother me too much!! :D


ps - for all those reading this who dont understand bangla (i doubt there wud b anyone....no one reads my blog anyway!!), daab is nothing but tender coconut!

me scott?

I have a new name! its scott! nice name, isnt it? well, I'm not sure how I got that name, but now that i hav it, i'm quite happy.
ok ok...i'll explain. i keep getting these spam mails n in almost all of them i'm refered to as Scot. ok, here's the deal...i'm very tech challenged n i hav no clue how spammers operate. for all u know, mayb its just one guy whoz sending these mails to everyone from different mail ids n calling all his recipients Scott. but who knows n who cares...i'm jus happy to hav a new name :D

n for all those who r wondering as to what bizness i hav reading spam mails, u'll b happy (read jealous) to know that i hav a lot of free time on my hands. i am often bored to death n thats when i do such useless things!
n while on the topic of boredom, let me tell u why i am bored...i generally hav a lot of (freelance) work. but since i find writing meaningless articles totally disguisting, i hav decided to give up freelancing. oh does all this bore u? is this information of no use to u? well, i dont really care, since its my blog n I get to choose what goes in here! tee hee hee :D

well, here's to my boredom, lack in life, n definitely to SCOTT!!!!